David Letterman was only funny because you were up too late and you were stoned. He was a terrible interviewer, and a worse straight man. His sidekicks were ALWAYS funnier than he was, and you could tell he hated them. He's a typical reticent Hoosier; crabby, no sense of humor, less emotion, unfriendly to outsiders, and difficult. This is why I fit right in here.
It's warm out! I am convinced that this is going to be a great summer. Even, and I mean this, even if I'm too busy to do anything that I want. I've got Leonard Cohen playing in the background, I have a late 60's British sports car in various levels of diss assembly in the garage, I avoided the post-Derby hangover by the skin of my Tequila-soaked teeth, and my workout routine appears to be paying dividends, In other words, things are going swimmingly today. I need a little money, but I'm not too mad at anyone. I have a company-paid mini vacation coming up. I have another kid, Dangeresque, in the National Honor Society. At my age I may have liver failure and skin cancer, but my cholesterol is under control and I just got an OK deal on extra life insurance. Besides, we're all going to die sometime. At any rate, I wasn't sick before I went to the doctor, and if he didn't tell me I was dying, then I'm not. Fuck the news! Seriously, I haven't felt this positively about things in a long time. Time to fuck some things up.
When you think about the nonsense that is Earth Day these days, remember that one of the rigleaders behind this new-style religion is Ira Einhorn.
Some people want everyone in the world to bend to their will, and thinks anyone who doesn't deserves to die.
The rest of us just want people to stop littering, to have water that's safe to drink, fish and game that we can eat, and a generally nicer quality of life.
Only one of us is called "environmentalist".
I cannot believe how some people can get away with doing just an absolutely crappy job. I mean, I'm by no means some type-A try-hard asshole who lives for my job, but I at the very least, do enough to keep on top of things. I'm beginning to see that most people actually do as little as possible as often as possible. I've considered this before, but I usually talked myself out of it. I usually ended up thinking I was paranoid, or overly negative, or even thinking that it was MY responsibility to get the work done. Today I've realized that I am responsible only for what I'm responsible for, nothing else. I can't manage a process that is outside of any responsibility, and I can't manage people who I don't manage. It's not that I can't push or encourage these people to do a better job. I can. I will. But without some kind of structure, all I am is a cheerleader. I'm a television commercial, entertaining, somewhat persuasive, a little informative, but ultimately a distraction. My motivation to get my work done is fear. Fear for my family, my career, my bank account. Straight up, if I don't perform to a minimum standard, I believe that I'll end up unemployed and in the poor house. I'd consider myself paranoid, but it's happened to me before. Even when I've been performing above standard. I've wasted almost an entire week of my life waiting for someone else to do a job that directly relates to my bottom line. I have no recourse but to wait. Usually, if someone is a shitty worker, like a contractor who doesn't show up, or a salesman who doesn't perform, I can try someone else. In this case, I can't. I would believe it's organizational culture, but there's multiple organizations involved. Day after day, the same shit. I know I'm complaining, maybe even whining. But it's my second day sitting in a hotel, away from my family, waiting for someone three layers removed to DO THEIR FUCKING JOB. Because the minute they do theirs, I will be responsible for doing mine. Or I won't get paid. They get paid no matter what. Fuckers.
Let's trash the pizza place because it won't cater a gay wedding. Got it, but if you think that the hubbub around the Indiana RFRA is about gay "marriage" you are out of your tree. This is the way that the big government types will go about destroying the federal RFRA AND all of the State's RFRAs in order to delegitimize religious objections to abortion or birth control or you name it. Sure, gay marriage is certainly in the pot, but the biggest blow to Obamacare came courtesy of the RFRA, and one of the lawsuits was filed by a family owned business in Indiana. Look at it this way, if State RFRAs are designed just so that religious types can discriminate against THE GAYS, it's going to be awfully hard to make a legal challenge to ANY law based on the ANTI-GAY law. Imagine the headline, "ANTI-GAY Law Cited by Homeschool Group in Lawsuit". Think that would be a winner? Do you think that law will stick around? Think that the federal RFRA will go the way of the Fugitive Slave Act? I do. The fucking GOP is probably trying to figure out how to repeal it right now. The reaction to this innocuous law was so quick, so coordinated, and so violent there is absolutely no way this wasn't a planned response. A popular governor, hated by the teacher's unions, with Presidential aspirations, is taken down. A law that helps defeat possible further Medicaid expansion AND works against school choice is destroyed because of a small possibility that a gay marriage might not get catered by a pizza joint. And seriously, what gay couple is going to have their wedding catered by a take-out pizza joint owned by Evangelical Christians to begin with? Seriously, is that EVER going to happen? Shouldn't the homos be clawing the eyes of those WT bitches that have no taste?
There is something seriously wrong with the world today. For some insane reason perceived slights are more dangerous and offensive than actual, physical threats, even murder. This is hysteria (a word that some assholes will find offensive), and it will lead to totalitarianism. It will also lead to violence. It always has and always will. Reason, religion, and ideals are good things when taken in moderation. They are deadly when taken to extremes. The 30 years war, the French revolution, the World Wars and the Communist revolutions all started because people were thinking the "wrong" things and people who thought the "right" things wanted to make the wrong thoughts punishable by death. Thinking should never be against the law. There are people out there who want it to be, people on every side of every issue. There is no middle ground any more. As one side becomes more strident and sharp, the other becomes more and more recalcitrant. The problem is that there is no benefit to society, no necessary change, it's simply a matter of forcing the extermination of ideas. The only way to completely exterminate ideas is to exterminate the people who have them. It's been that way since people have had ideas. This is happening in our society while the basic tenants of western civilization are being attacked, literally, by barbarian hordes. The circle of Western influence and learning is shrinking, slowly but steadily, day by day. While here, in the belly of the west, our time is taken up with the complaints of children over playground teasing. I'm terrified. War is coming. Maybe not for years, but unless something changes and quickly, it will be certain, massive, and bloody. Everyone will have to pick a side. Pick yours carefully.
Monday, in a futile attempt to get back into shape, I started a new challenge. 100 reps. Basically a dumbbell circuit. 75% of max for 10x10. Serious burn, I'm impressed. I picked dumbbells because I'm trying to repair my shoulders. I haven't been able to bench anything on a barbell for months because my shoulders have been killing me. The doc gave me some steroids for the inflammation and I have been doing wall slides, band work and light shoulder raises, which have helped a bit. But, I'm still worried what heavy benching will do, no matter what grip or elevation I pick. So I found the dumbbell workout. I'm still using a bar for deadlifts, but dumbbells for squats. Honestly, the dumbbell squats are a lot harder than I would have thought. I don't have enough dumbbell plates to get as heavy as I should be, so I may go buy some today but it's still a ton of volume in a short time. Benching 45 (the max I have) in each hand for 100 reps with a 30 second rest between each 10 Burnssssss. By the 6th set of curls (same weight) I'm struggling to keep form. I like it. It's different. I even started keeping track again. Basic bench, curl, overhead press, bent over row, squat (can be goblet squats), get ups. 10x10 at 75% of max. I alternate days with heavy deadlifts, cardio, leg lifts and pull-ups. I have a long way to go to get back to normal, but I already feel better.